insecure betty

i'm the breadwinner. i'm the da jie. i'm a cell leader, the DL, the teacher, the Christian.
i have to be secure for all these ppl.


i miss so many of the people who make me feel secure and ok to be just me.
overseas, or just busy... or in some cases, just gone forever

maybe thats y i cannot sleep. don't feel secure enough to sleep.

in my imagination there'd be someone who'd lie beside me until i fall asleep. not really working cos right now, i dont have a face to paste on him.

i'm a walker

i was still wide awake in the morn....

Children's day service
daphy's 20th!!! the cake is sooo cute...

burning nostrils
you better watch out on your birthday....
haa... cos i slapped a slice or the cake all over half her face... ai yar, betcha you'll forget it by next May!

we've got the library as our cell time room. lucky lucky us.

all sorts or rubbish in the drawers...

did a Gifts test thingy. my gifts are:
1) helping others (no surprise, i'm a yes woman)
2) teaching (no surprise, duh)
3) wisdom (hear that jimbo?)
4) healing (big surprise!!!)

really wanted to have some time alone with him but it just din work out. frustrated. felt so rejected. maybe this is how it should be.

beautiful SMU water feature. would like to walk in it some time...

i'm a walker.
walked from queens town MRT walked to queensway just to change 1 sports bra then walked back.
got to orchard, walked down, and up, and down again, all the way to cityhall.

you know, i can now understand why the girls would choose yuki to talk to. he's almost always there. and he's got no motives. but i smsed DM instead.

it's nice company. random talk. random walk. sent him back and took a long train ride home.

ate up the family's dinner and got scolding cos they had to eat maggi.

can't sleep

frustrating. tossed and turned for couple of hours already.

fed up. ate up all the left over dinner in the fridge. found the long strip of fassler's smoked salmon, polished it off. uncooked cheese tofu, ate that too. finished 4 hot dog rolls. topped it off with a bowl of maggi mee.

read through the newspaper and readers digest.

i hate insomnia.

shoPink with kia... the KIMI cap!

haven met kia for like a month +++, so.... shopping! an excuse to do some walking and talking la. at the same time, can shorten my to buy list...

queensway is our usual start point. got to replenish my sports tops. BRIGHT PINK. just to be stubborn, i shall not post the pic. bleh to you kia.
b.u.t..... got to change to a small. dang... i dont fit XS anymore.

take a break at shaw LJS to ppl watch

we compared cam-phone photography skills

kia's best shot

my best shot

i think i win. i made him look better, he made me look, well, normal lor....

i sooo want this cap!!!saw it at Wisma 4th floor world of sports, its like $80+++ :(
still thinking whether to get it. totally LOVE IT but $80?!?!?

Audi TTS!
vroooommmmmmmmmmmmm

Golden village... i should throw a stone at the 'N'.... make it 'DEVIL'

colueur inc. (Glory 22)--> $3.40

as good as NARS, L'Oreal and those $$$ stuff but soo much cheaper!!! yet much more lasting than those too cheap kinds.
different color from my usual, by a bit,, haa.... LOVE it! not bad kia, you passed girly shopping test 1!

vulgar nails
hee... i still very bad at these beauty stuff... made a mess of my middle finger so had to clean it off and wait for the rest to dry before painting it.

den came 10 min of being narcistic

still very hyper but its late so better sleep

muakz everyone~!

messy raya

no sentosa.

darius mentioned that palawan beach looks more like... erm... ok, i shall not say it cos its too racist.

so change to shopping, dinner and movie.

fu wen say he dun want shop so ask yuki n i to go first then he meet us when we're done. okie dokie!

Jappie shoppin was fun! haaa... our shoppin styles 're pretty similar! and we talk ALOT!!! its like yak yak,, bitch bitch,, point point,, complain complain,, alllll the way!!!

crowded sia~.. i dun like crowds. KFC was disgustingly messy, milo on the floor... ewww!!!! hygine rating should be D!

i dont remember our area having sooo many foreign workers eh... its not that i have any prejudice but they are soo messy!!! they eat by the streets and leave chicken bones on the benches, pepsi bottles spilling the sticky stuff all over the grass, liquor bottles in the drain.

i was angry. i love Singapore man... how can you come here and do this to my clean country? raarrgh!

took a walk home... nice night. thank you Lord for olding up the rain for me.

Love you. happy hari raya :)