i've been sitting here for quite a few mins and i still don't know what to type.
can i just start by asking everyone to forget last year? cos i want to forget it. and i cant forget it if everyone keeps asking me about it. there were two times in my life so far i made a huge mess of my life. the first time was when i was 21. the second time was last year, 24.
and with each time, i just wanted to start things afresh. at 21, i overhauled my life. din really do a good job at that. cos i missed things, i missed people. now, lets just say, i'm hauling back the things that i threw out the other time. minus Cinderella.
btw, Cinderella is not who or what you think it is.
and finally, i'm beginning to accept what life is like after Snow-white. yeah, it was 8mths ago, but i have delayed reactions to things. and at the back of my mind, i never really thought he could not love me anymore. maybe it was because i never really knew why he loved me in the first place. i think he does not know the reason himself.
so when can we say its truely over and close this chapter?
either he finds someone else, or i find someone else. and its not going to happen, at least for many many years, cos its just not within our nature. i'm not being arrogant, i know him. tho i know that he might not think the same way for me.
we could open that bottle of wine. the ice wine that was made the year we got together. he said we would either drink it when we wed, or when it ends.
so, Snowwhite, make that decision. dont ask me if i want to pop the bottle. you want it, fight for it, you dont want it, dont beat around the bush. make the first move, i'm not going to this time.
just have 1 qn tho, i dont know what to do with all the things he gave me. its all over my room and its starting to look strange (i.e. hanging on to the past)...
can i just start by asking everyone to forget last year? cos i want to forget it. and i cant forget it if everyone keeps asking me about it. there were two times in my life so far i made a huge mess of my life. the first time was when i was 21. the second time was last year, 24.
and with each time, i just wanted to start things afresh. at 21, i overhauled my life. din really do a good job at that. cos i missed things, i missed people. now, lets just say, i'm hauling back the things that i threw out the other time. minus Cinderella.
btw, Cinderella is not who or what you think it is.
and finally, i'm beginning to accept what life is like after Snow-white. yeah, it was 8mths ago, but i have delayed reactions to things. and at the back of my mind, i never really thought he could not love me anymore. maybe it was because i never really knew why he loved me in the first place. i think he does not know the reason himself.
so when can we say its truely over and close this chapter?
either he finds someone else, or i find someone else. and its not going to happen, at least for many many years, cos its just not within our nature. i'm not being arrogant, i know him. tho i know that he might not think the same way for me.
we could open that bottle of wine. the ice wine that was made the year we got together. he said we would either drink it when we wed, or when it ends.
so, Snowwhite, make that decision. dont ask me if i want to pop the bottle. you want it, fight for it, you dont want it, dont beat around the bush. make the first move, i'm not going to this time.
just have 1 qn tho, i dont know what to do with all the things he gave me. its all over my room and its starting to look strange (i.e. hanging on to the past)...
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