stylo instant noodles

kinda a continuation from yesterday's entry...

fufu's cooking show. teach you how to make a simple meal complicated.

fuz's instant noodle master piece.
p/s: fried dumplings by meeee!!!!

see the laptop beside the hugescreen plasma TV?
plug and play downloaded movies... yeah... its awesome!

watched 'Knocked Up'.
oh my goodness... its so erm... explicit.
maybe i should rethink giving birth the natural way.
they say full hips are good for giving birth.
i've got no hips.

nice movie but rather long sia.... KOed...

morning hair... soo pong pong

hey, whats this?
....... that's soo thoughtful!!!

+ a big cup of energy drink and i'm off to church for councilling workshop part 2!

had a very hard time there.
realized why i'm so bad at helping ppl evoke their innermost feelings...
its cos i am not able to face up to MY OWN innermost feelings.
hmmm... quite true.
if i'm sad i cry. if i'm really sad i smile. weird huh.

was sooo looking forward to the All Saints vs Jubilee soccer at 5pm but match canceled cos it started raining woof woof meow meow...

my new umbrella finally touched rain! bright color for gloomy weather. perfect.

councilling 101

just came back from my church leaders retreat....

was pretty cool... practiced how to attend to someone seeking pastoral care from me
the only problem?... the usual problem.

i'm the only one of my age there.
kinda weird during practice session.

i mean....
well...
can you imagine trying to be a councilor/ adviser to someone twice your age and wiser???

i din know there's so much skill involved just to talk to ppl about their problems!!!!!
pastor steven (the one in the complicated shirt), i kow tow to you.


to show you how stressed i was..........

i accidentally poked yet another hole in my shorts by my itchy twitchy fingers.
boo hoo... :(

oh well...
gonna pack and go over to fufu's place tonight.
uncle heng they all are in shanghai.
home alone after a bad day at work is just crap lar....

hope i can cheer him up with dinner and movies :)

would you like to model?

promoter: hi, would you like to model?
me giving the *sorry no thanx smile*, shaking head and keep walking

promoter: could i have 3 mins of your time?
me: "not interested"....... still walking

promoter: i think you have a really unique look, are you local?
me: "sorry, i dont model"... its like 5 meters and she's still following

its annoying when it happens and i take a certain rude pleasure in practicing the various curt ways of saying no.

not that i have anything against models, its just not for me.
i think MOE will kill me.

then i did an employment survey for a guy... filled in everything, including contact no.
and he's smsing thanx now. is he allowed to do that!?!!? should i complain?!?!

i was actually at bugis junction after BSF to buy Coffee's favorite hay...
then i came home to find that kei had also bought her hay.
now she's got 1kg of hay...
we have to force her to drink her water.
she's 7++ years old, thats like 7 x 12 = 84 years in human age!!!
stay healthy k. kuchi kuchi goo... wee! wee!
muakz...



yet another cake. this one's from citibank.
blueberry cheesecake w almonds... my favorite!!!
coincidence?!!?

the crazy year i was 21

a time line of the significant events in my life that aunty gwen asked us to do

Child
Youth
Adult

not drawn to scale...

thinking about it, 21 was a crazy crazy year...
love, death, many 1sts.

it was also the year i went totally bersak.
i hated not being good enough.
someone i really cared for made me feel disposable...
i was not good enough to be in a K4.... (the only serious chance in sea games then)
some ppl saw me as a 'bad influence' for not being the typical demure church girl...
.
.
.

i'm egoistical, that is how i survive.
but there comes a point where even my self defence cannot hold and i start doubting my self worth.

music was my outlet...
din finish it cos it was difficult to speak objectively about pain when you are still feeling it.

never enough (its played to C G A F )

i'm not strong enough, i'm not fast enough,
didn't win enough, i'm not good enough.

i'm not nice enough, i'm not sweet enough,
i'm not kind enough, i think i'm rather mean.

how can i be happy being me when all of you thrash my dignity.

i'm not smart enough, i'm not fun enough,
i'm not young enough, not mature enough.

i don't love enough, i don't pray enough,
i didn't serve enough, i didn't do enough.

you just throw me away when i'm useless to you.
you call me heartless when you're cruel too.
those who love me call me a fool.
why does it matter so much to me that i'm never enough for you

dont try to sing it, its unfinished.

i cant really remember the tune myself... dug it out from my music book

i worked my way up until i realized that i was numb.
i din know why i worked so hard. i din seem to love anything anymore.
not the team, not friends, not medals, not the sport.
why the heck was i doing what i was doing?!?!?!

i could not give it up although falling passion= falling performance.
but they slowly gave up on me it seemed.
so one day it ended. i was out of the line up.

i wonder if they are still pissed at me.
all i dare to do is read your blogs, ask others, and smile at your highs and sigh at your lows.

xiao hui, i'm sorry about your mom.
belle, i'm sorry about your sis in law.
i'm sorry that all i could do for you all was pray.
no,.... i COULD have done more... but i din dare appear.

girls, i'm sorry i just left. just like that, only informing the neccessary.
at that time i thought it was for the best.
i was a serious pain-in-the-ass.

gambatte teamNUS. whether you believe it or not, i care.

birthday celebration #3

~happi birthday to you~ * today got birthday??*

~happi birthday to you ~ *eh whose birthday ar?*
~happi birthday to kimi ~ * oh. oh ya.. duh*
~happi birthday to me~ * for the third day in a row sia*

i'm 1. forever young.

behold... the BSF young adults DLs... are... eating...

serene you big mouth, you MSN'ed me "hey sunday is kimi's birthday!"

me, my cake and my 2 monkeys


the BSF DL 'uniform'.
they say its by chance. a bit coincidental, no?

age is a weird thing here... used to be the youngest female DL in the region until geraldine joined.
still feel like a duckling tho... being young is not much of a plus factor here.

anyway, this is something from my lovable previous DL fenny!... enjoy!

who says that churches have no sense of humor?

these two are my fave.

birthday celebration #2

they are soooo pretty!!!

~mama tells you to wear nice underwear when seeing the doctor~
eww... i hate doctors. what am i talking about....

whined to my dad that i dun like ppl asking me how i want to celebrate my birthday and guess what... he tried to make a surprise meal plan!!!
おとうさん... i don't know what to say...

can't bear to eat them... maybe i'll just freeze them for a month...

i dont know what this is.
he's not telling me.
i'm guessing it's おとうさん's yeastless bread thing...

there's so much food!!!!
something weird tho,, i dont seem to be into meat anymore.!?!
used to love pork ribs so much, now its just not my taste.
and i dont eat veggie or fruits so.... ermm....

main course : noodles
side dish: rice
dessert: mayo potato

so although i eat like a blackhole, its quite cheap to feed me!

happi birthday to kimeeeee

6 times he's celebrated my birthday, everytime i think its e best ever, every time i wonder how he's going to top it...

was so happily tired from the late night movie, morning service and cell group that i told him i din want to go out. i wanna stay home and slack.

one thing fantastic yet daunting about having your birthday on a sunday is that you end up shaking many many hands and getting hugged/squeezed/choked and punked by many many many ppl...

kinda thought we were going to lazily watch youtube clips at my place.
although him asking me to clean up my room was highly suspicious...

the boys did not know how to say "surprise" lar!!!
sooo obvious that they have never done something like this in their whole life.

i totally LOVE SURPRISES. kia, gion, yuki, and a mahjong set!!!
jellies, drinks and a camera. my little perfect party.

suddenly yuki blurted out: " did you remember to put the ice cream in the freezer?"
me: ".... oh... so there's ice cream har...."
ahahha... kinda busted their surprise plan...
of cos he kena lap but hey, whats new?

they bought my 2 fave flavors!!! i think i ate half of each tub... erp..
somehow chunky monkey melts waaaayyy faster
dear chunky, you're my #2
cos turtle soup is just MMMMMMMMMMMmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.....
crunch crunch crunch...

gion looking like a tellytubby cos jimson wanted to play too.
the wonders of skype... i miss you gor!!! skip exams and fly back!!!

two seconds later jimson will show middle finger....

My prezzie from fuz

it the zojirushi bottle that lets you insert your own pictures.
mine has 3 dancing goldfishes

i think i'm one of the few ppl who actually feel at ease reading his handwriting. i love it.

you know what's the most amazing thing?
i told him not to spend more than $100 on my birthday.
i mean its easy to bring a girl out on a lovely meal at a classy place, buy her an expensive present, splurge on her and expect that she be awed by your 'expression of love'
no
at least not for me

THIS is soo much better!

and you know what my parents said?
" he's a really good guy. you better treasure him."

cufflink shoppin with kia

had to find a PERFECT pair as a grad prez for fufu.

we must have looked through hundreds of cufflinks!!!
its hard to choose when there's no budget...

finally settled on something classy from giorgio mandelli.

kia's the best shoppin buddy. ever.

1. he does not care what i wear out
2. he gives honest opinions
3. he's crappy and moderately bitchy???
4. he has a closet full of clothes that look all the same
5. he honestly loves to shop!!

hope you find your perfect pair of sports shoes soon! but seriously you need to lower your criteria.
where do you find an adidas/asics below $100 which is not too silver or too white and has no blue?!?!?

could not resist being narcistic.
shut up about my weight kia.....

gonna go watch Indiana Jones and the Kingdom of the Crystal Skull with fufu and fang now.
argh, i'm gonna be late...