finally talking

this is what i have been doing for 2 days.
my butt is like permanently stuck to my chair, legs up, one hand stuck to the mouse...

watching grey's anatomy for the 3rd time, taping myself on the guitar...
there's a change tho, i finally talked. and my mouth couldn't stop!!! no one to talk to then i started singing the house down...ahhahah

the thing that pulled me out was realizing that the silence thing was rubbing off on my dad.
he always seemed to treat my room as a sanctuary.
he would come up after cleaning the house and lie on the floor, enjoy the air-con and talk to me.
he would come up when he thinks he pissed mom off to hide. hee....

i think the plus factor is that i'm e only one he can talk to in Japanese.
and so when i clammed up, he clammed up.

otosan has always been chatty and optimistic. to see him silent and dull is scary enough to jolt me awake....